A Step in the Right Direction? I don’t know. The jury’s still out.

So I did it. I paid for eHarmony.

It was impulsive and reckless–which is how I think most normal people sign up for these sites. It’s late at night. You’ve just finished watching a Jane Austen movie and in a fit of longing for a man (preferably with an English accent) to sweep you off your feet and fall madly in love with you, you find yourself actually thinking, “This might be a good idea. I mean where else am I going to meet someone?”

I’m not saying that’s what happened to me. I’m just saying…I imagine that’s how it might could possibly happen for someone else. Or something along those lines. Maybe.

So it’s been three days and can I just say…it’s miserable. Every anxiety, fear, and insecurity has come bubbling to the surface as though I was a 10th grader facing the lunchroom wondering what table is acceptable for me to sit at.

I can’t believe I actually paid money for this.

*as a reminder: don’t leave any stupid comments about dating, being single at 30, how you understand, how you got married later (at the ripe old age of 26) and that it will all work out, how God has someone wonderful waiting, how God needs me for something special in the meantime, etc. “Stupid” being the operative word here. And if we meet in person, no. I don’t want to talk about this.

8 thoughts on “A Step in the Right Direction? I don’t know. The jury’s still out.

  1. I know of more than one person who has married someone they met on eHarmony. Others have met nice people that turned out to be friends. And anyway, how different is it than meeting someone in your favorite section of the bookstore?

  2. OH my Krista-girl. Remember when we used to laugh every day together? I miss you! And I think you are great–I thought it then, think it now, and will probably think it forever. :)

  3. Krista-
    All you need is one.
    Keep your head up.
    When God closes a door…
    My sister-in-law's cousin's next-door neighbor met a GREAT guy on (insert website here).
    Trust me girlfriend, you think you want all of it now, but sometimes I'm totally jealous that you can spend time starting your own business when I'm doing diapers all day!

    I think the last one and "keep your head up" and things along those lines are the most obnoxious. Yeah, head is plenty up thankyouverymuch.

    And I hope by Jane Austen book you meant Stephanie Meyer book. Like those movies didn't make everyone want a companion? Right? No? Just me?

  4. I commend your bravery. I am not that brave.

    With love from the little round red head behind you in the lunch line.

  5. YOU CAVED? me too :) was totally the eharmony special running right before christmas — i tell ya, it's pure marketing genius to throw those "specials" in right around the holidays. it obviously wasn't the least bit logical for me to sign up before moving out of the country…but somehow i did it anyways. they totally got me. suckers.

    so in addition to all the other insecurities… my favorite awkwardness is getting matched with someone you already know… better yet… someone you've already dated. don't worry it's happened to me twice now. it's like you don't want to immediately "close the match" as if you're rejecting them (sometimes for a second time) but you just pray they don't "start communicating" cuz you thought you were safe when you closed that door and ran…

    oh the joys of the journey.

    and only thing worse is when your mom starts adding your exes as friends on facebook!

    don't worry — that also happened to me this week.

    ugh.

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