Make a peach pie!
Well, alright. I realize that that might be a bit of a stretch, logistically speaking, but the fact of the matter is … I’ve had enough of my pity party. Two days were plenty, and by the end of yesterday, even I was tired of being around me.
So I hit a bump in the road. Big deal. I allowed myself to go through the emotions–all of them. From shock, to happy, to sad, to mad, to excitement, to a little bit more mad, to hurt, to relief, to just…okay. And then got up and I made a peach pie with the leftover peaches we canned on Monday night.
After dinner, Frit and I went to religion class where, ironically, the best friend of my former job’s CEO (did you follow that?) was teaching and she had us all stand up at the beginning of the class and say our names and share what we “do.” Frit looked at me and burst out laughing. I stood up and just said I “did” marketing. Apparently the gods are trying to keep me humble. And it was a funny way to end my pity party.
But Wendy (my former job’s CEO’s best friend) did say something that stood out to me. We were studying Genesis 24-50 last night, particularly the juxtoposition of freedom and bondage in those chapters, and she said, “Before we came to this life, we each promised Heavenly Father that we’d fulfill our purpose here. And if something doesn’t feel right about the path you’re on, then perhaps you’re not doing what you told Him you would do.” (that’s not a direct quote but it’s the basic jist).
And you know, she’s right. I haven’t felt “right” at that job for some time, but because my fear of the unknown, I stayed put. I was in bondage in a sense. But now I have a chance to figure out exactly what I need to be doing, and more especially, to grow more into my true self because of this situation.
So no more pity party. No more aimless wandering. No more staying in pajamas until noon. No more feeling lost. Because I’m not. I am a child of God and He loves me. He knows me and guides me. And He knows what He’s doing even when I don’t. He has given me talents and abilities and hopes and dreams for a reason and those are the things that make me unique (my special sauce). And that is what defines me.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to make a plan. I think I know what to do. That is, right after I eat a piece of pie.
Oh My! You make me laugh, smile and cry every time you post.
You are in my prayers and I know you will find the right path so you can be doing what you and Heavenly Father know you should be doing.
Much love to you dear sister, I feel like you are just getting started and that your hopes and dreams will take you to higher and better places than you can imagine. Please write about it when you get there!
I think I should eat more peach pie in my life. I love you kristaper, and i know the Lord loves you too!
You go girl :)
Beautiful!
This post speaks to my heart. Especially as the question "What does God want me to do on this Earth?" has kept popping up lately.
Thank you so much for sharing!
I vote for author! :)
will you make me some peach cobbler? k, thanks! :]
Hey! That's kinda what I said…only hers was waaaay more eloquent and profound. Glad you had your big a-ha moment! I know you'll do great things with it. You rock!
Welcome to life post DB!!! Let me be one of the first to say, the grass is greener on this side of the fence and life is MUCH more fun!
Your peach pie looks delicious! Sorry to hear about the job, I think losing jobs are meant to be sometimes, when Ty lost his in Nov. he was relieved in a sense because he hated it there and was just "stuck" doing nothing about it. He didn't find another job until April but he is way more happy and was able to figure things out. I know you'll figure out what and where your suppose to do. I love you!
Just read about the job. That stinks…but not really it sounds like. So whatever happened to writing for a travel magazine??? Wasn't that what you wanted to do when we were roommies? I would look up some travel magazines, contact them, and see if they are in need of some fresh air writers!! And, if you do this, get a fabulous job, get to travel all over the world, promise me you will take me on at least 1 of your adventures! Thanks ;) he,he Or…start your own catering/party planner business. All those brides up there…….You have lots of talents, lots of gifts, now is the time to USE THEM!! Good luck girlie!
Ok, I know you probably don't remember me, but I married Jedd Cherry…and I also knew you in the Bountiful Single's ward with Bishop Child. ANYWAY, I saw your blog off Karen (Hale) Osborne's and have been completely inspired by you. I even put a quote from your blog on mine….so thanks. You amaze me, you always have, from the day I met you at church for the first time with Sarah Kime, until now, your faith is BEAUTIFUL! Just wanted to tell you that. And so I have been sitting at my computer staring at it for the past half hour, just soaking in all your thoughts as I read your posts…and I am in AWE.