Is that like my cup running over? Hmm. I’ll have to think about that. In the meantime, I have a hilarious story about Frit … that I will be sharing on Monday (oh good gracious, you REALLY want to stop by on Monday. I don’t even know if I can wait that long!), but today I want to talk (write) through some things I’ve been thinking about, as it pertains to where I’m headed. I know! Aren’t you so excited?! Me TOO!

As I’ve faced unemployment square in the wide-open-with-possibilities face, I’ve had daily visions of all the things I’ve always wanted to do but never did because I didn’t have time. Before, when I had a job, it was all I could do at the end of the day to put on pajamas, fix a PB&J for dinner, and watch Cosby Show (best show ever) on DVD until bedtime.

But now, having 8 hours of my planner not tied to a job, makes me feel full of life and excitement for what my life can/could be. Having said that, I don’t want to diminish the time I spent in my last job. I knew, as a young college graduate, that when I said “Yes” to the job offer, that it was exactly where I was supposed to be. It was exactly what I was supposed to do. And over the last six years I have gained a vast and varied skill set that now makes me highly marketable & incredibly knowledgeable. I mean, I was the publicist responsible for the nomination that led to a Grammy-win for Gladys Knight for cryin’ out loud! I produced and managed a regional musical tour seen by almost 150,000 people over the last three years! I placed media stories & appearances for our recording artists that resulted in 10,000,000+ media impressions in one year! No, my time there was not wasted. I gave so much. I learned so much. I became so much.

But seasons change and now it is time to put that knowledge to use to support my passions, and my dreams. All of them. Some people think that the trouble with us Pisces is that we’re always swimming in two, three, ten different directions. But the great thing about being a Pisces is that I’m always swimming two, three, ten different directions! I love the energy I feel when my brain cranks are churning, dreaming, flying in different directions. Particularly the dreaming. That is how I’ve spent much of my last two weeks.

And as I’ve looked at and thought about all my ideas and dreams, I’ve begun to realize that our desires/ideas/dreams contain clues to what we’re best suited for and capable to achieving. If you want big things, you’re capable of doing big things. If you feel inclined toward a certain thing, then you’ll be able to do it. But too often we limit ourselves because of fear, or uncertainty, or lack of know-how. But as my friend Laurel so appropriately quoted Lee Iacocca recently:

So what do we do?
Anything.
Something.
So long as we just don’t sit there.
If we screw it up, start over.
Try something else.
If we wait until we’ve satisfied all uncertainties,
it may be too late.

I’m not certain that my ideas are right. I feel like they are, but if I’m wrong, I’ll start over. If I fail, I’ll try again. And never in my life have I looked at things with this type of an attitude. I’m one who appreciates certainty, safety, maps, outlines, step by step instructions for success. I’ve always steered clear of doing things I knew I wouldn’t be good at. But I don’t know if I’m going to be good at this. But I’m at a place where I can’t help but try. The pot is bubbling over and I can’t put a lid on it. I don’t want to.