One for You, Two for Me


Last night the conversation went a little something like this:

Me: You know — I think that if Heavenly Father is going to leave us single for longer than we expected or wanted or planned, then He owes us extra blessings.

Frit: [chuckle] Oh yeah? How so?

Me: Well I mean really, if He’s going to keep us single like this, which is fine, there has to be a reason and a purpose. And for sure we’re blessed. Most definitely we are blessed. But I think He kind of owes it to us to give us an added measure of help and love and direction. Extra confirmation, you know, that we’re in the right spot since technically the “right spot” is creating and caring for a home and family. And since we’re not doing that, I think we should be blessed with a certain and special knowing that we’re in the right spot, for us, right now. And I think that that “right spot, for us, right now” should bring great satisfaction and joy. I think we deserve that. I think that’s fair.

Frit: [smiling] Have you told Him this yet?

Me: [still very serious] No you’re the first person I’ve shared my theory with. I mean technically I guess He can hear me right now as I’m telling you, but I haven’t actually discussed this with Him personally. Yet. But I’m going to.

***

I haven’t actually discussed it with Him. Yet. I’m still mulling over the theory in my head before I present it to Him. I mean, you’ve got to know what you’re talking about when you go before the Lord with something like this …

[Quiet Contemplation ... ]

…No. No, you don’t.

You don’t really need to know anything, except that He’s there.

And He is.

Ever-present and ever-loving.

He knows I need some extra blessings right now. He knows I need some extra direction and extra help and extra confirmation. He knows I’m not where I want to be and that I’m not fulfilled in the ways I want to be fulfilled. He knows I want some things to be different. He knows I have dreams of my own and something inside me that says, “I was meant to do more.” And oddly enough, I’m not even talking about finding my Love or even being a mother right now.

And He doesn’t owe me. [chagrin]

I owe Him. Oh, how I owe him. And yet …

He’s waiting to give me more.

Waiting to give me what I need (and so much of what I want).

Because that’s who He is.

***

Pardon me, I’ve got to go. I’ve got some discussing to do with Someone.

Sleep tight.

Photo Tag from Mandy

My dear friend Mandy tagged me earlier this month … so!
In my 4th photo folder, my 4th photo is:

This picture was taken on a day trip from Denmark to Sweden. While in Sweden, we visited an authentic and fully operational Viking village on the shores of the Baltic Sea. This Viking was our tour guide and looks like that every day, even when he isn’t giving tours.
He said he loved his Viking life and wouldn’t want to live any other way.

***
And just for your viewing pleasure …
I thought you might enjoy a few others snaps of the shore on this
glorious day of sheer perfection.

Krista: Close iTunes and step away from the computer. Now.


Ahhh! Somebody stop me!

Or at least help me figure out how to get a tax deduction with my multitude of iTunes receipts. I mean I work in music. That’s gotta count for somthing right?

Whatever. I have GOT to take it off my computer. Despite my self-imposed rule (see #25), I just bought 5 tracks off Ne-Yo’s Year of the Gentleman album (mmm, he’s yummy by the way). Oh heaven help me.

Oh alright! I bought the NKOTB/Ne-Yo video of “Single” too. You happy now?! Yeesh. OK I’m for real done.

Pssst, if you don’t have an iTunes rule like I do (or if you do and don’t follow it like I do),
you should really check out Ne-Yo’s “Miss Independent.” Sa-weet beat.

Lessons Learned from Looking Out My Window

Every Tuesday night I attend a religious education class, a.k.a. “institute.” At the end of tonight’s lesson my teacher shared an experience she had had with President Gordon B. Hinckley a short time after she finished writing his biography.

It was a sweet story, nothing monumental, but left me tears none-the-less. Tears for his life. Tears for his goodness. Tears for his love. His example. His service. It has been one year since his passing and while I know that God has given us another prophet whom I wholly love, support and sustain, I cannot help but miss our dear President Hinckley. It’s just a different world without him here.


As I sat, tears falling, thinking on this great man who did so much to share the gospel of Christ, I remembered my own “personal” encounter with President Hinckley …

It was the Spring of 2005 and at that time I worked from an office that had a wall of windows on the north side that faced the LDS Church Administration Building on South Temple St. in Salt Lake City, UT. It was a sunny day and I’ll admit, I was gazing not at the computer screen like I ought to have been, but out my window watching the world go by.

A few minutes into my reverie, the doors to the Administration Building opened and out came an older man with a cane. I knew the form and face well. Yes, it was President Hinckley. An immediate smile came to my lips and I could feel my heart get a little soft with love. I settled into my chair and just watched.

He had his body guards with him, one on each side and then one trailing behind as he began a “lap” around the gardens to the east of the Joseph Smith Memorial Building. He stopped every twenty feet or so, pointed at a cluster flowers, smiled and talked to his guards.

About half way to the Church Office Building on the north side of the square, there was a young mother with a toddler in a stroller. As the prophet came near, she stooped down and began talking to her little boy and pointing to the prophet. I imagine a beautifully simple lesson was being taught. President Hinckley stopped and talked to them for a moment, and then continued around the garden.

A few minutes later, he’d made it almost all the way around the garden patch still stopping and pointing out particularly lovely bunches of flowers every so often when, at the South Temple St. crosswalk, a bride and groom stopped him to requested a picture. President Hinckley happily smiled and posed and spoke to them for a moment.

As he continued on his way back to the Administration Building, I noticed that one body guard always trailed about 15 feet behind. I also noticed that sometimes President Hinckley would use his cane, other times he wouldn’t. But eventually they made it back to the Admin. Building and were quickly up the stairs and inside.

I sat in my chair for quite a few moments after that, thinking about what I’d observed from my little perch. And this is what I learned from my ten minute observation.

Lesson #1. Take a walk in the middle of the day – even if you’re at work.

Lesson #2. Stop every 20 feet and look at the flowers – not just once, but every 20 feet. There’s a new bloom just that often. And talk about them – the way they look, the way they smell. I know it’s cliche in every way to say we should stop and smell the roses, but how many of us actually do it? Honestly. When was the last time you noticed a garden of flowers, or the sunset, or a baby’s toes, or the way the wind feels in your hair, and then actually talked about how wonderful it was with someone else?

Lesson #3. Stoop down and teach. Literally and figuratively. Teach the things that matter. Teach the things that are simple and true. I imagine all that young mother said was, “Honey that’s the prophet. Look. He talks to Jesus. He teaches us what to do.” (or something along those lines). Point your children (or whomever if you/I don’t have kids yet) toward the people who will point them to Christ.

Lesson #4. You can’t point without looking at what you’re pointing to.

Lesson #5. Start your marriage right beside the prophet. (and then continue with him)

Lesson #6. Sometimes we may feel like we’re so far behind where we want to be or where we think we ought to be. And sometimes we may feel all alone as we walk. But we just need to look at where we’re walking and who we’re following. Find people worthy of following, look at the steps they’ve already taken, and then take the same ones. That body guard walked every step President Hinckley did, just 15 steps behind … but eventually they both made it back to the Administration Building, with President Hinckley waiting at the door for him.

Lesson #7. Sometimes we might need to use a cane and sometimes we don’t. It’s OK to use a cane sometimes. Give it a go without it too.

President Hinckley had no idea that I was watching him, soaking up anything I could learn from him that day. It is a treasured memory filled with lessons I’ll keep for always. And tonight I was reminded of why I love our late prophet so much. It’s because he loved us and he loved the Lord and did all he could to help us know Him.

I want to be more like that.

How Us Single Girls Do the Superbowl


We eat:

No, not buffalo wings but …

les petit cheesecakes

What is that you say? You need a closer look? But of course! My apologies.


Closer still?
Well alright. If you say please.

Just don’t lick the screen.


Delicious, wouldn’t you say? A little cloud of heaven.

Well, after delighting themselves in creamy bliss, they chit chat, keeping tabs on the score via the people wandering from big screen to bathroom, until intermission. Upon finding out the show is Bruce Springsteen … they return to their chit chat. Eventually someone looks at the clock and, “oh my, the game is almost over!”, at which point they run to the tele for the last five minutes, bite their nails through those grueling final seconds, and ask what city the red team is from. Finally, as the game concludes and the players rush the field, they offer sympathy to the red team, talking about how sad they feel for the ones who lost.

And that, is how these single girls “do” the Superbowl.

But onto more important matters: How to make your own les petit cheesecakes. It’s really very simple.

Ingredients

Makes 18

  • 3/4 cup crumbled Nilla-wafer cookies (you could also use chocolate wafers)
  • 1/2 cup plus 1 tablespoon plus 1 teaspoon sugar
  • 1 1/2 ounces (3 tablespoons) unsalted butter, melted
  • 1 pound cream cheese, softened
  • 1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
  • 2 large eggs, lightly beaten
  • 1/2 cup sour cream
  • Pinch of salt
  • 1/2 cup fruit jam

Directions

  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line standard muffin tins with paper liners. Mix cookies and 1 tablespoon plus 1 teaspoon sugar in a bowl. Stir in butter. Press 1 tablespoon of mixture in bottom of each cup. Bake until set, about 7 minutes. Let cool in tins on wire racks.
  2. Reduce oven temperature to 275 degrees. Beat cream cheese with a mixer on medium speed until smooth. Add remaining 1/2 cup sugar, then vanilla. With mixer running, add eggs slowly, scraping down side of bowl. Add sour cream and salt. Pour batter into muffin cups, filling almost to the tops.
  3. Bake until sides are set but centers are wobbly, about 20 minutes. Let cool in tins on wire racks. Wrap tins tightly with plastic, and refrigerate 4 hours or overnight.
  4. Warm jam in a small saucepan until liquidy. (In the pictures above, I used apricot and raspberry.) Strain through a sieve. Spoon 1 teaspoon jam on top of each cake. Cheesecakes will keep, covered and refrigerated, for up to 3 days.