Me: You know — I think that if Heavenly Father is going to leave us single for longer than we expected or wanted or planned, then He owes us extra blessings.
Frit: [chuckle] Oh yeah? How so?
Me: Well I mean really, if He’s going to keep us single like this, which is fine, there has to be a reason and a purpose. And for sure we’re blessed. Most definitely we are blessed. But I think He kind of owes it to us to give us an added measure of help and love and direction. Extra confirmation, you know, that we’re in the right spot. I think we deserve that. I think that’s fair.
Frit: [smiling] Have you told Him this yet?
Me: [still very serious] No you’re the first person I’ve shared my theory with. I mean technically I guess He can hear me right now as I’m telling you, but I haven’t actually discussed this with Him personally. Yet. But I’m going to.
I haven’t actually discussed it with Him. Yet. I’m still mulling over the theory in my head before I present it to Him.
He knows I need some extra blessings right now. He knows I need some extra direction and extra help and extra confirmation. He knows I’m not where I want to be and that I’m not fulfilled in the ways I want to be fulfilled. He knows I want some things to be different. He knows I have dreams of my own and something inside me that says, “I was meant to do more.” And oddly enough, I’m not even talking about finding my Love or even being a mother right now.
And really, He doesn’t owe me. I know that.
I owe Him. Oh, how I owe him. And yet …
He’s waiting to give me more.
Waiting to give me what I need (and so much of what I want).
Because that’s who He is.